n.b.: As Transgender Day of Visibility 2019 was Sunday, March 31, I thought I would close out the little ‘social experiment’ I’ve conducted for twenty years. My previous post on this is here: Riding the Long Island Railroad.
I often wonder how people are gendering me. Sometimes it is clear (e.g. being addressed as sir or miss) while other times I can only guess, based on looks from people and other nonverbal cues. It would be interesting to track how I am being gendered – to see if there is any pattern to it over time. The problem with this idea is that it would require I solicit feedback from people (i.e. strangers) and keep some sort of running log: something that is not at all practical.
Or is it?
Prior to the end of 2017, all monthly Long Island Rail Road (LIRR) tickets used to have two boxes on them: a ‘M’ for male and and an ‘F’ for female. The idea behind this was, supposedly, to help prevent people from sharing tickets: the efficacy thereof being questionable at best. One thing it definitely did was to create discomfort for trans and otherwise gender non-conforming riders. Under pressure from several advocacy groups, the MTA finally relented, and eliminated the ‘gendering’ of tickets at the end 2017.
I was featured in a 2016 public radio news piece about the MTA policy. Those curious can listen to it here: Should the MTA Get Rid of Gendered Passes?
I have saved my monthly LIRR tickets for the past twenty years. It started April 1998, when my ticket was ‘mistakenly’ punched as female: I found it amusing, so I saved the ticket. This was the genesis of an ad hoc experiment to gather some long-term data with respect to how I am gendered. Each ticket is a physical record of how, for that month, the conductor gendered me. It’s not a huge sample set, just one person one day a month, but it is a physical record – enough to yield some interesting insights into my gender journey over the past two decades.
Here is a sample of a monthly ticket:
At the start of the month, the conductor would take your ticket and punch the ‘M’ or ‘F’ as appropriate – with ‘appropriate’ being whatever gender the conductor thought you were. This was usually a quick, couple of seconds procedure: take the ticket, punch it, hand it back. In my case, however, they were not always sure what to do, and sometimes got creative. There have also been a few instances where my ticket was punched one way, only to be ‘corrected’ by another conductor later in the month.
These usually have PIE (punched in error) written on them by the conductor who ‘corrected’ this most egreguious of errors. I have tickets originally punched ‘male’, later changed to ‘female’, and originally punched ‘female’, later changed to ‘male’. With the sample above, the conductor took my ticket, punched it ‘male’ and handed it back to me. Then a few seconds later, fumbled about and finally said, “I made a mistake, can I have that back for a sec?” I handed him my ticket, which he re-punched as ‘female’ and then circled the first (‘male’) punch and wrote PIE. I had to smile, finding the entire exchange rather silly and pointless.
All in all, I have tickets punched male, female, neither male nor female, male then female, female then male, and some not punched at all. I have pulled all of this together into a Tableau dashboard, because of course I would. 😉
Clicking on the above will take you to an interactive dashboard where you can filter by ticket type, year, total punches… It’s a very clicky dashboard. 🙂
Notes on the data:
- My gender issues came to a head in 1998. I considered the ‘mispunched’ tickets that year just that, mispunched.
- Late 1999 through 2001, I started presenting ‘less masculine’ at work.
- During part of 2002, I was required to dress in standard ‘Business attire’ (i.e. a suit and tie.)
- From 2003 through 2017, I was presenting more trans / gender non-conforming (TGNC) on a regular (and increasing) basis.
- 2017 shows my ticked not punched for seven months. It was in the latter part of that year that the MTA stopped punching tickets, finally removing the male and female boxes for 2018.
Observations:
- The degree to which I have been gendered ‘female’ corresponds to my increasingly TGNC presentation since 2003, which had been pretty consistant.
- Winter months seems to be the most likely time for me to be gendered as ‘female’
- Overall, I was gendered ‘male’ only 24% of the time, opposed to being gendered ‘female’ / not sure 57.5% of the time.
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